I completed this “Sun through the Trees” piece a short time ago during worship at HOPE Community Church in Lubbock. My friends from LIHOP were leading worship.
This is the first time I’ve painted a piece so large (24×36) live. I had planned on getting there early so that I could begin with some collage materials, but did not succeed. For some reason, it feels like I’m wading through molasses when I prepare to go somewhere and paint. Not all the time, but some times. I’m sure it’s resistance from the spirit realm as well as my own in a small way.
I really love creating these pieces once I get going. There’s something so remarkable about joining with others in worship in this unique way. I can’t really explain it other than to say as I have before, that it tends to feel like I’m painting what they are singing or playing or praying.
As I research more about frequencies (each color has it’s own wavelength and correlates with a particular note although many octaves higher), I begin to see the colors of the painting filling the space and interweaving with the sound creating a greater depth and height than when each are separate. I would so love to have some sort of spiritual meter to measure the immeasurable! The scientist in me would completely geek out!
But, the resistance on my part comes from my inherent introvertedness. It terrified me to be in front of people for most of my life. Fortunately, I’m no longer terrified. I’m also a recovering perfectionist…so it still amazes me that I get up in front of people with a big blank board and some paint with no plan but to trust that God will help me.
There is usually a moment in time where I have no idea what is happening or where I should go from there. Fear tries to get in when that happens. All the “What will they think?!” questions clamor for attention. I have to remind them that it isn’t about me, God put me here to do this, and it’s up to Him to help me get it done.
And, He always has.
Some pieces I like better than others, but in the end, I’ve always felt that the piece did what it was supposed to do, even if I don’t know what it was entirely. But, this one, I love.
There are many layers of meaning to me. I love seeing light streaming through clouds or trees or anything really. I love trees. I love mysterious paths that invite one to find out what’s beyond the bend. And this piece has all of it.
I believe that this piece is telling those at LIHOP and HOPE, and the rest of us as well, that we have pressed through the darkness towards the light. We have persevered for years with possibly few signs of success. But, not only are we getting closer to the breakthrough, our pursuit has drawn the light towards us and the situations that we are interceding over. So, we don’t have to go all the way. Jesus is coming to meet us, and He’s bringing hope and joy with Him!